…does being happy annoy people? Why do people assume because I’m happy and smiling I must be in a relationship? Is it not possible to be happy with myself? I am loving finding myself. I am loving rediscovering all the things I love and have let fall away because of outside influences, mostly my ex-wife and ex-girlfriend. I am so happy and content with myself I actually feel sorry for these people who think I can only be this happy because I’m in a relationship. Right now I’m too selfish to be in a relationship, I’m enjoying my company too much to let someone else spoil it.
As suspected I did row yesterday. I did a few exercises also. It was a good workout.
Now on with today. Today was a full workout day. I rowed for 8 minutes. Two of those minutes I upped the tension and I feel it in my tummy. I rowed for a little less time yesterday but I upped the tension for a couple of minutes then too. Add to that the ab workout I’ve started and for the first time I really feel my tummy groaning because of it. I’m not complaining. I am still enjoying the workout. I’ve yet to see a difference in my body but it’s only day one of week two. I’m thinking it’ll still be two or three weeks, at least, before I see/feel a difference.
I pushed myself a little harder today. I feel I have to up my game if I really want to see results. I’m still not going to push too hard because I don’t want to hurt myself and I’m not completely unfit but I’m not that healthy either so I’m trying to find the right balance. I still feel like I can push myself that little bit harder. Each week I think that’s what should be expected.
I finished with another rowing session. I upped the tension for another 2 minutes. I then completed 7 minutes on the lower tension. It’s the longest I’ve gone and I loved every second of it. One of the things I like about the rowing machine is that I can watch TV/Netflix or similar. I’m easily bored and I’m not confident enough to run and train in anyway outside or in a gym. I need something that will keep my focus. That was another reason I got the rowing machine. I know the kind of person I am but I have to say that unlike other times I’ve tried to start some sort of workout program this time I’m mentally ready for it and want to reach my goal. Still I know that without some other stimulation I’d eventually get bored and I’d give up and that’s the last thing I want to do.
Today was going to be my workout day off. I have decided though to row. Deep down I always knew that I would. Until I see and feel a difference in my body I will do a workout every day. Today will be another rowing day with a little exercise. I do not want to push too hard and hurt myself but at the same time I worry that I’m not pushing myself enough. I go until I can’t go any further but not that far that I am in pain. Although, today, after doing the ab exercises yesterday I feel my tummy a little sore and I’m ok with that. I will do the ab workout again today and every day. My tummy is my main focus, butt second and thighs are third.
Saturday was day 7. A rowing only day. I started rowing and found it comfortable. I’m not saying easy but it wasn’t difficult either. I upped the tension and managed about a minute. I had to lower the tension. I rowed for 6 minutes in total. On the lower tension I pushed harder and went faster.
I had a small break and drank water. I rowed again this time for 7 minutes. It was on the middle tension so I switched between rowing comfortably and hard and fast. I found this to be an effective rowing workout. I was sweating and red and felt bloody great.
After the second rowing session I did a few reps of some of my other exercises, just a few since it was a rowing only day. I did the ones that focus specifically on my tummy area.
I’m still surprised that after one week I feel so good about myself. There isn’t a big difference in my body shape yet but mentally I feel great. The benefits to working out go so much further than getting your body in shape, it affects your mood, your mind, I’d go as far as to say it affects everything. I am loving it.
Friday was day 6. A full workout day. I rowed for 5 minutes and 30 seconds. I really enjoyed it. I pushed myself quite hard during the workout. It’s not that I haven’t pushed myself other times but on Friday I went just that little bit further. I did at least an extra 2 or 3 reps during each session.
After the workout and a small rest time I rowed again. Once again I added extra time onto my usual 5 minutes. I managed 6 minutes. It was a little bit of a struggle in the last 20ish seconds but I kept pushing. I’m not quitting. I’m not giving up.
I think leaving social media has played a huge part in my mental and emotional health getting better. At work Facebook is mentioned so often and not always in the nicest of terms.
Now that I don’t have to worry about it I find that my mind seems so much clearer. I’ll try and explain better later on.
For now I must go back to work. I’m still smiling lots.
Today was a rowing only day. I have to say I am enjoying these workouts. I feel better in so many ways and all so soon after I have started. My mood is better. My mind is more focused. My thoughts are more positive. I know it’s not all down to the rowing and workouts but I do believe it’s played a big part.
I am eating better. I have had issues with eating disorders and I’ll admit that I was having some issues lately. I was forcing myself to have at least one decent meal a day. Sometimes it was really difficult but I ate. Now I am eating better, perhaps still not where I should be now that I’m working out, this is something I am working on while building towards a healthy eating plan.
I rowed for five minutes and had a break. I then rowed for another 5 minutes and added 30 seconds on. I want to build up to seven minutes, that’s my goal for next week so now that I’m close to the end of week one I thought that I’d start to increase a little on the last couple of days.
I’m looking forward to doing a full workout tomorrow. I bought some clothes that are more suited to working out in. I never imagined that it would make working out feel so much better. So come on tomorrow, I’m ready for ya.